yes, reset. i need it. i am still feeling my way to the right schedule – homeschool, as it turns out, is quite my bag, baby… 🙂 seriously, i’m good at it! i LOVE the time with my daughter and her energy & work ethic for learning is just amazing for me to be around. wow.
still, change, y’know? good change is still change & today i was re-vamping our schedule – trying to fit all the classes in on days where we go to speech therapy is a challenge…we are figuring it out –
okay, the other side of the coin – my physical life – well, i did print out the training schedule. i am adhering to it. clap, clap, clap. 🙂 at the last minute, i punched in that i could only run 5 days a week, which has been really great. i did my first “long” run of 6 miles last Sunday. What??? UNheard of…i used to hide my running passion early in the day, as best i could, so that it didn’t interfere with wifely or motherly duties. well, i guess hubs sees the look in my eye – about 6:30, i come into the living room, asics in hand, sitting & chatting with him, lacing up all the while…”I’m running.” “Okay.” GOT to. Got to.
So,,, i’m not doing as much as i was, at least physically, but i am doing so much more. having the responsibility of making sure sweet baby gets what she needs is of the utmost importance to me. my credit card bills are WAY down; i just don’t have the time to be in stores…weird, but true.
i don’t feel as pushed physically as i did. i didn’t do Cajun Man. i was bummed, i’m not gonna lie. but, hey, you do whatcha gotta do, right? however, i found myself almost fearful of water since last week. okay, it was temporary, but it was weird.
tomorrow – super busy – an actual OFF day – from any running, etc., – homeschool, the end of ‘spirit week’ for my 7th grader, picking up a new car for me in baton rouge, dinner for my step-daughter’s b-day… all good stuff that works out perfectly for me to honor that off day…saturday i’m going to get 2-3 miles in…i think this new training program is good…
i ran last night – 3 miles in 26 minutes. on the heals of a super-bee-otch period. period. still bloaty & yuck feeling. sigh. but i was cruising! as my runkeeper said my mile split at 2 miles, “17:something,” i was like, WWWWhaaat? trying to figure it out in my head. i was thinking, wow, i feel like a fat-ass, yet, the proof is in the app!!! sweet!
idk. i just feel different. i feel like my goals have shifted and i guess, for awhile, they have. i have wondered about home-schooling – not about the choice, but other things – will we do it forever, or just this year? either way is fine by me. i personally love the lack of stress in the afternoons. dealing with a particular teacher who gave frigging nothing is not something i miss. baby girl is thriving, just like i said she would. we are one month into school. she is taking her chapter 2 science test tomorrow. she is almost finished with chapter 3 in math. she GETS it. she is brilliant.