I’m not even sure yet how to title this post…I simply know that on Thursday morning, I went to Mass at STM, something I treasure and guard as part of my week. I am NEVER without a sense of wonder as I sit there every Thursday. I still scanned the audience of bright, sweet, young faces, still hoped to see my own baby in there…didn’t happen, but I am just in awe of what I did see. And feel. The Holy presence of our Lord Jesus is so thick in the air. I am so thankful for my faith and my relationship with God and Mary. I guess what I’m getting at is that I have felt such a strong heavenly presence this week especially. I really leaned on Mary during the week leading up to my first tri. I just needed my Mother with me. There was so much to do and feeling overwhelmed, I needed Her calm presence to help me through. Last Christmas at Coteau, a beautiful show done at the girls’ school every December, I bought a hand-made beaded necklace with a miraculous medal on it. It’s a long necklace with several strands of varied blue-hued and silver beads. The medal is pretty big, as medals go – about 2 inches. It remained in it’s box until September 7, the day before Mary’s birthday. I remembered I had it, pulled it out, thought about when I bought it for no one in particular. I put it on and realized, yep, I’m keeping it. For now. (I have given away SO many things like this – when the Holy Spirit guides me to give it away, whaddya gonna do?) Anywho, so, yeah, I’ve been wearing this particular one as often as I can. And, no, us Roman Catholics don’t honor pieces of metal or statues, but we DO, however, pray to saints for various reasons to intercede on our behalf…almost like going to a specialist in a particular field, if you will…St. Thomas Aquinas is the saint we pray to for students. Lose something? St. Anthony can help. And our Blessed Mary? Well, she’s the Queen of the Universe. Anything you’d go to a mother for, you can talk to the real Queen Mother 🙂
recently, i was in a meeting and someone commented to me about my daughter’s reverence during Communion…someone else in the meeting said, “She gets that from her mother.” My response, indicating my Mary medal, “I got it fromMY mother…” smiles.
We are here for just a moment in time. The real deal is eternity. ETERNITY. That’s a long time. I wanna be with Jesus. I wanna hold my dad’s hand again. None of us know when our ticket will get punched, y’all. I don’t believe we are to live in fear of dying, but I do believe we are called to live as fully as we can WITHIN God’s sight. Don’t waste your gifts or talents. Don’t think you are less than you are. You belong to God. He permitted you to be born and he permits every moment you have on this crazy planet. Don’t get too attached cuz the real deal is what will happen when He calls you home.
So, this week, I have learned, even more so, about the wonder of the cycle of life – at this point, I simply want to please Him…I want to step lightly, reflect His love, store up prayers for my loved ones.
I just wanna keep it real.